Duh.

so come to find out that i went to the hospital just because i can't poop...and nothing else. they gave me laxative to drink tonight. a whole bottle of it. i don't think so. i am going to wait until tomorrow around noonish to start drinking it. i don't know how it will affect me. ugh. i am so sore..i'm not pregnant. ): it's sad. i want a baby so badly i think i am just making these aches and pains up in my head. well, it's one am and nick should be home in a couple hours. i think i might stay up and wait for him tonight. there is something that i want to get him for our anniversary. it's an avenged sevenfold wallet. it's only 5 dollars. well, 14 with tax and shipping. but it's still really awesome to find an avenged sevenfold wallet for 5 dollars!

anyway, i am super bored. i want nick to come home already. jeff and hope both have tomorrow off of work. yay... :/ i made nick some mac n cheese because for the past 2 days hope hasn't been putting up any food for him. i haven't eaten dinner in the past 2 days either. it really sucks not being able to eat what i want when i want. i want to move out of this place so badly. i hate it here. we have to get all our bills caught up before we can even think about moving out though. ): ugh. there are very few advantages to living here. thank god nick gets his car back tomorrow. i am fucking going insane staying here all the time. i hate it here so much. hope uses me for an excuse to come up in my room, even when i am asleep, to smoke. jeff thinks she quit. i don't know how he can't smell it on her. he can smell it any other time someone else smokes...but not her. makes no sense. anyway, i guess nikki wont give lona most of the money out of her check and now lona is kicking nikki and sage out. but i highly doubt that will last long. nikki and sage need that place. and mom isn't going to stand for it. nikki can just go stay with aunt jake & grandma but i highly doubt that will happen either.