Life.

I don't have a normal life. I am basically a house wife. I do nothing and have to ask to do the things I want to do..and Nick's answer is usually "No". So I have given up on a lot of things. I look at all these people I know that live happy lives and are out having fun, and what do I do all day? Baby sit. ): Ugh. Sometimes I think I would be better off just leaving and kind of living the life I never had. I know I could move to Sturgis with my dad. But I really don't want to do that. I don't even know how I would get there if I were to do that. I want to get a real job and a real life. Ugh. I really hate this. I have to do everything with Nick. I can't even go to the gas station without asking him. And I hate that he has to support me. He buys me cigarettes, clothes, soda, etc. I feel like I can't do anything for myself. ): I can't even talk to the people I want to talk to. Life fucking sucks. I just want to have fun.. That's not going to happen anytime soon.