i don't want to be here anymore. i am ready to go, be on my own. i need to find a job first though. nick got mad at me today..of course. he hit me more than once, on my leg. and ohhhh and i telling lacey. hahaha. he is such an asshole. i really can't stand to even be around him anymore. he is making me stay with him even though he knows that i don't want to. i even gave him back his ring today, and he made me put it back on. bullshit. i am sick of being treated like shit. i hate this fucking shit. i am done. i am mentally done in this relationship. now the hard part comes...physically getting out of this relationship. ugh, i was thinking that i want to find a 3rd shift job. so i can save up some money and get my own place. without everything and everyone. haha. i would still watch the kids, they would just have to bring them to my place instead of me living here.
ugh, i hate living with nick. i don't want to even be around him anymore. i wish he would either let me die, or him kill himself. he is still an over controlling asshole. and i know that it's never going to change.
i finally got some soap so i can wash my piercing. yay. maybe i can get rid of this infection. (: that'll be nice.
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