Today.. Enough Said.

So, I am sitting here, outside, listening to music because Nick thinks we have to go to the park this early and he is trying to fix a seat belt in his 82 Firebird so we don't have to walk. Ugh. I feel awful. I don't know what to do. Things just seem to be getting worse around here as the days pass. Payton is trying to wear clothes that don't match..that's not going to happen. Blahhhh. Fuck!! I just want to scream. Avenged Sevenfold is my only escape at the moment. Fuckkkkkkkkkk. I hate people most days. And today is one of those I want to Murder Everyone days. But oh well. I guess I will get through it just like I have before. I need a cigarette...but I don't want to get up. Haha. I hate parks. Maybe if Nick gets his seat belt fixed we can just to the free swim. The kids would like that. But Nick wants to have lunch at the park too. Which means we would have to go to the other park. Ugh, Payton picked out a yellow tank top with brown plaid shorts. Does anyone else see a problem with that too? Shit, things are getting tense. Not really. I feel like blowing up at someone. And the only one I have to blow up at is Nick. And I can't do that. :( Oh well....I hope today gets easier. But I highly doubt it will. I don't see why Nick wants to cansitantly go, go, go. I hate doing that. And it only started another arguement this morning. But we fight all the time anyway. I doubt that is a healthy way to look at it. :/ Hmm..